thought processes

im sorry for making the wrong decision last night. i didn’t enjoy myself as much and this morning, waking up and realising the folly of my decision just made me feel bad.

 

waking up, i listened to the lies i should’ve tuned my ears away and ran away from. but yet again, the lies came in and ate me. i was weak and i didn’t draw strength well enough or from the correct source. these lies they just are stuck in my head at times. they haunt me, make things difficult, make me remorseful and incite regrets each time. i gotta flee and run from these lies. im faking it, im weak, just take things for granted, everything’s going to be ok, everyone goes through it, everyone does it, it’s alright since everyone is doing it wrongly. screw this. i hate it when i fall to such thoughts. it irks me.

 

don’t worry its not what you guys are thinking incase you’re wondering what i’m talking about here.