something that i should have gone for a long long time ago.

today, was D day. the day where i guess in the eyes of many, an attempt to keng. but however. i realised that this day should have been done much earlier. should’ve been done last year, as a recruit instead of thinking of saving money. i should just spammed and got myself out of this whole year of predicament. but nothing is left to chance so i suppose god allowed this to happen. well in short. i went back to the specialist that initially flashed the alert lights that i had torn a ligament. i brought out the memos i’ve got from nuh therapy, from camp mo, and the scans i’ve done in nuh itself.

“oh, from the scan itself i can’t really tell whether you’ve got an acl tear or not. ” – certain orthopedic at nuh.

” you don’t need surgery. therapy will be sufficient.” – a certain CONSULTANT in nuh.

so what the doc told me at gleneagles was really different. he pointed out from the physical stability test that my right knee clearly showed a ligament tear, that though the scan can be interpreted as a partial tear, my knee actually looks like a complete tear has occurred. he was patient and listen and really tried to fix my issue. best of all is, he seems to emphatize with all the bullshit i recieved under nuh. and further more, he said this instability requres surgery, something that retarded consultant did not want to reccommend at all. oh my gosh. i was so angry when i heard everything. angry with those retards at that hospital. i couldn’t stand all the bullshit that i’ve been going through. the tendonitis and all was all due to the ACL tear right from the start and freaking nuh did absolutely nothing to try to discover it. they simply just dismissed it all and rushed me in and out of the consultation room. i made a quiet resolution to myself on the way home after visiting the clinic. if i ever become a doctor in the future, i’ll never work for that retarded place.

my mom then dragged me to see her boss and my former childcare principal after the doctor’s visit. but she spoke into me some nuggets of truth and i really appreciate it. i’m still too tired to fully absorb it all but i really appreciated it.

 

i’m just hoping that on monday, when the fellas up there hear about the surgery, they might just give it all up and just bounce me somewhere where i can be a human being again.