cast in stone

so it was official yesterday. at around 1715, it was announced :

“blah blah will be posted to …. “

you get what i mean don’t you. it’s just sad to leave. as in to put it in a way, leaving will be bittersweet. though i’m guessing bittersweetness is 50 bitter, 50 sweet, in my case i guess its 80 bitter 20 sweet. well, though sometimes the life where i was was unbearable, i really really do like dogs. and going to dog wing was a place whereby i get to interact with dogs everyday. so it’s like having my own pet.just that having certain people around complicate the situation. but ultimately its sad to leave cause i’ve grown rather accustomed to the life here, i get my weekends too. so yes, it is sad. went through a whole emotional thing, couldn’t bear to leave my dear AE behind. haha. that fella’s been a good companion i tell you. and it was actually a good farwell from me to him yesterday cause very few people were around, certain people were on leave. so i had the freedom( in fact many people ) to do pretty much anything we wanted after finishing the normal stuff that we had to do each day. so i guess, i spent most of the time hanging out with AE. playing with that fella. and i guess from the look in his eyes and all, he really had a hell of a time. i just wonder whether he realises that i’ll be leaving. apart from that, there are a few good friends that have been there to chat around with and hang out with in the unit that well, make it a little hard to leave. i didn’t like the idea of going somewhere so gloomy to kill the remaining time till 2010.they were there for me and to share some joys and pains. and i’m touched by the gestures that some people put in, big or small when lam announced my departure from next monday onwards. from the small encouragements of “take it easy, wong is very nice to his men.” to ” it’s ok, at least you’ll get to experience something new.” and “well, the change of environment is good.” i’m really touched. especially the unexpected gestures from people whom i didn’t really consider myself very close to who keep trying to cheer me up or try to help me find a loop hole out of this. i really appreciate all the effort guys. i’ll remember your words when i step pass those gates on monday. whoa, i sound like i’m going there to serve a sentence when i’m actually just going there to work. ha!

 

the final thing that really made me feel real touched and assured was the chat with my wing commander whilst he was on his way out of the unit to run an errand. i’m just touched that he tried to keep me where i was or trying to post me somewhere better than where i’m heading. but i guess, god’s hand was to go to that dreaded place by making that place the only place with an opening. and i guess even though i dread it, upon learning that fact, i know a place has been prepared for me there. and during my so called official posting out interview, when i read what was written in my blue booklet, i was quite touched by the affirmation written in there. thank you lord for that. and also by the words that my wing commander said to me

” the gates here are always open for you to visit the dogs, and if you have any problems at all, you may come back here and look for me.”

the golden handshake,

and finally a phonecall over to the CSM on the other side in a bid to help me pull some strings?

well, i’m touched by all of those gestures put forth, and i tell you this wing commander of mine will be one of the really few army regulars i’ve met that really earned my respect. thank you sir.

 

so no more AE, sigh and a new beginning. i’m just grateful that the lord gave me such a pleasant last day and hopefully a pleasant 7 more months plus to go.