its been tamed down relatively and it seems like its back? with a vengence?
upper respiratory tract infection. 2 days attend C!
thought processes
im sorry for making the wrong decision last night. i didn’t enjoy myself as much and this morning, waking up and realising the folly of my decision just made me feel bad.
waking up, i listened to the lies i should’ve tuned my ears away and ran away from. but yet again, the lies came in and ate me. i was weak and i didn’t draw strength well enough or from the correct source. these lies they just are stuck in my head at times. they haunt me, make things difficult, make me remorseful and incite regrets each time. i gotta flee and run from these lies. im faking it, im weak, just take things for granted, everything’s going to be ok, everyone goes through it, everyone does it, it’s alright since everyone is doing it wrongly. screw this. i hate it when i fall to such thoughts. it irks me.
don’t worry its not what you guys are thinking incase you’re wondering what i’m talking about here.
im not looking to tomorrow. even till now. it still seems so unfair that my entitlment has been conned and lied about and taken away from me. and they only gave me one month with this current arrangement. after this one month, things are yet again uncertain thanks to those idiots. they just love making life horrible for all of us. sigh.
i guess its better than nothing for now. going back only on wed, stay out for one month. and even though its one month away, please let it stay that way all the way till the end
if this pain and this process and how you answered me touches and even draws people to you, then lord, i won’t mind it and i’ll see the purpose in suffering through all of this
Paranoia is in bloom,
The PR transmissions will resume,
They’ll try to push drugs that keep us all dumbed down,
And hope that we will never see the truth around
(So come on)
Another promise, another scene,
Another packaged lie to keep us trapped in greed,
And all the green belts wrapped around our minds,
And endless red tape to keep the truth confined
(So come on)
They will not force us,
They will stop degrading us,
They will not control us,
We will be victorious
(So come on)
